Friday, April 20, 2012

Not My Best Week

I started eating low starch/low carb this week, and I am pretty sure that it fucked with my system in ways I can't imagine.  It's weird because everyone I talked to said something like this might happen, or it might be hard, or it's an effect of giving up sugar.  I read one person who said it is as bad as quitting smoking or coffee.  You know, I did give up coffee once, and I also went off Wellbutrin, so I have something to compare it to.  And it sucked like both of those things.  I felt less and less energy as each day went on, and by Thursday, I was falling asleep at my desk at work and yawning continuously.  (I'm sure it was charming for everyone who got to witness this.)

By the time I left work, I was so depressed and down that I felt like my life had just gone to hell and there was really no point in continuing forward.  You know the good thing about not being depressed anymore, is when I do have a depressive day like yesterday, it's an isolated incident, and I started feeling better today.  The bad thing is just how easy it is for me to slip on that cloak of darkness and despair and start down that road of feeling bad about everything again.  I did realize that all of those feelings are based on my body's reaction to how I'm eating, and that this is a process.  But I keep hearing people talk about how I'll feel more energetic and sleep better and all that, and I was thinking that they were lying.  The jury is still out on that more energetic business.

I'm just glad it's the weekend.

1 comment:

Kailyn said...

Took me about two weeks but it mIght be longer for you. Wasn't that huge a change in eating for me.